So for probably the last month I have been relatively pretty good. Ive been talking to my parents more letting go of emotions that I have been supressing. Ive been going out a bit more with different friends. But now after I got into collegiate that Im really happy about and I finished an AP exam that left me no time for me to think is over Im back in the dumps.Some of my friends went out after the exam but no one invited me, which bothered me. It put me in a bad mind set and now Im back to thinking of who my best friend is and relies I dont really have one. And to top it all off I know the only reason why I wanted to go with them is because Im falling for my friend but it would never happen because she would never see me that way. Yeah SHE, this is why I think I get depressed easily Im a confused teenager about my sexuality, which is something I havnt been able to tell my parents about because how can I expain this to them when I am still confused myself? But either way it doesnt shake this nasty feeling in me the hurt sad empty feeling. Its dark and gross I hate it! But why does it keep coming back! I cant I just be a happy person? Why do I have to be so confused?!