thanks for all of your replies you guys have really made me think about things i know i need profesional help but its hard for me at the moment becuse of my situation right now i don't have a car and my job keeps me really busy. this guy is just always on my mind its the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last thing i think about when i go to sleep i know this might sound awful but sometimes i think that if i had keep the baby maybe he would still be around the rejection just raelly hurts. is it crazy of me to think about one person so much? my boyfriend has no idea i feel this way he is a great guy but like i said there is absoulutly no passion, and the passion i shared with this guy was unbelievable i just can't get over it.