You not offending at all,I have a threads in addiction that really explains alot of the reasons we are were where at.( http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...ken+fatherhood) U can update my situation a little better,I love my wife and my children would do anything to keep my family together,in short I was an evening achoholic drank very strong whiskies I abused my family when I wasn't sober not physical but mental since last drinking venge I was on 3 months around ago I quit and am sober to stay. My wife has a build up over the last 22 years she couldn't be honest with me she kept everything inside.I am to true I can't keep my mouth shut I came from a small family,my wife is from a family 12 I was family of 4.Now she has walls up,I am working to get through them,in baby steps but we are going forward not backwards that is a plus, I have very low patience,I working on that bigtime,I get real moody feel like a stranger sometimes in my house, just very heart braking to actually have to go through any of this I am going through.All I can say I have learned so far is !!!WHEN YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS PERFECT BE VERY CAREFUL.I taking different approaches on everything now my life has totally changed,I have good days now not all bad ones,time will tell I willing to give it my all,I think we will find a trues between each other but isn't going to happen any time soon I can see.