Thanks to both of you for your replies.

I am trying my best to make good decisions. i.have no idea why i walked to the ER. but im glad i did. I showed my T my wounds. she was shocked but understanding. its the first time ive actually shown her. She knew of my SI. i was honest and told her every time. I may bring up this fear of her abandoning me next session. i trust she can help me. And i cant imagine her betraying that trust.

Thanks again for reading and replying. it means alot.

Black Wolf