Hi. Im in the same boat and Idiot17, only 4 people know im suicidal. I also brush the problem off with jokes and laughing. Thankfully my T sees through it. And honestly, I would go insane if people were constantly with me as well. if u do have a good T, tell them that all this 'attention' is doing more harm than good, which is how it sounds to me. Ive found that having a really good therapist who is willing to understand and work with you, not against you. is vital to getting on the road to recovery. Its by no means that absolute solution but its definantly the start line.

Please dont do anything to end it. im sure it will get better for all of us.