Please, if it's not too much trouble, please please tell me not to.

I'm 17 and I've barely started. Did for a month back in January then made myself stop. But distress has made me do it more. Mostly out of anger.

But I already think now about how I want kids and I don't want them to have to ask.

But I can't tell anyone in RL about this for fear of the consequences.

Please tell me to stop.