I've noticed I've been doing something instead of cutting. I've been taught to substitute a "skill" that produces an intense feeling like cutting does. Well, I found one...one that gives me the same exact feeling!

I do something most women would never admit to doing...I masturbate. When I cut I get the same exact feeling that I get from masturbating. The feelings and emotions that I experience are the same with both.

Unlike most cutters, I feel no guilt, shame, negative feelings, etc. about my cutting. I feel great when I do it. Ha, I guess you could say it's better than sex! LOL I can't find one person who reacts to cutting the same way I do.

I noticed I started this substitution last night when I wanted to cut so badly but instead masturbated after I had had a flashback. For me it doesn't involve anything sexual, but more of an intense feeling.