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Its like as soon as I get disappointed I beat myself up about it and think its all my fault. I hold onto relationships as much as I can. But then I must let go cause things do not last forever.
I feel rejected a lot and when I get rejected I take it out on myself. Its always my fault even when it isn't.
I find letting people into my life too hard as I know they will leave me, hurt me so I try and let people only see me at arm's length. When I do let people in I get hurt. When I am out with friends and the day/evening is coming to an end I get really upset that I will be away from them. I lean on people too much and that is my problem. I know it is my fault. I know I should just be "normal" but I don't know how to be "normal"
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