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Hey there Jaypop30,
We all experience it differently.
Bipolar to me is a huge rollercoaster ride of emotions, thoughts and feelings. I have Bipolar Type 1 which means I am more Manic than Depressed.
My Mania feels like my head is spinning and is constantly spinning. It feels good and even when I am in danger with my Mania ie the bad things I do when Manic I can't feel anything else bar a release of light. Rollercoasters and dodgems come into it. Mania is fun but at the same time can be dangerous for me in respect of spending too much money, un-protective sex etc etc
My Depression which is far and few between can get real bad. I hate the Depression and do not like it at all. Depression is not my friend. I feel so low and down in the dumps. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes I need people to kick me up the bottom as I can become obsessed with not eating, drinking, washing, going out etc etc!
Sometimes it can be scary especially when I become "invisble" I always think I am a superhero when I am Manic. "Suicidal" when I see no end to the Depression. Also paranoia, delusional and when I see/hear things. But I am learning slowly to go with the flow. I have only been diagnosised since late 2010 so its still all new to me too.
Good Luck on your journey
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