If it helps, I feel a lot of the same ways you described. I am bipolar II. You actually described how you felt really well. Keep up that kind of communication with your soon to be psychiatrist. I know for me, as soon as we started alleviating my symptoms, I was better able to see new ones appear. Well, they had always been there, but masked by the mixed cycling. So don't be surprised if that happens too.

I wish you the best of luck, and no, your not the only one that goes through that. I have since a child. But that won't help you now. The psychiatrist will though. Don't give up.