my little 18 year old gave blood today and in her usual bravdo way wanted to walk right out and wouldn't eat or drink anything. Okay, this kid is 5 feet 2 inches and wears anywhere from size 2-4. So I didn't think anything of it. And way later when my hubby's dog almost got hit by a car by jumping the fence, I asked her and my son to drag a log over to block the jump. He didn't help her and when she made it back to the house he caught her as she was about to faint. Little snot, acted like a diabetic with low blood sugar and was combative, would not drink juice, eat sugar or crackers with penut butter. Her lips were as white as a sheet and she was leaning on me. I was trying to figure out what to do with a belligerent kid passing out. Finally we got juice into her and later more fluids and fruit and a little protein. I am still anxious as all get out. I wanted her to sleep with me, hubby is away. She won't let me sleep with her because I come with 4 dogs. She seems okay but she scared me and I hate making these kinds of judgement calls on family members. Common sense says she will be okay. I just freaked. She won't even let me leave her a bottle of water with her. EEEERRRRR, she can be so frustrating. Her pulse was like 30 when I first checked it.

So, here I am, the woman who can handle anything at any time finally having feelings about fear, not being self-confident etc.

I am learning to feel, I don't think I like it very much.