well i am not sure how to explain it other then i get fusterated and angry with my self i dont know why i get so angry with my self but i do and it quickly turns to a rage then before i even realize it its like i lose myself, i lose time and space and memeory, i ususally realize what i am doing at the last possible second. then i pull my self to safty, but after i am safe and calmed down i slowly can recall what happened but i cant recall how i got to that point or what feeling or emotions i had at the time i just am able to barley recall what i did or where i psycially went.. its scarey!!!!