Hey y'all. I'm Amber, I live with my fiance and our 17 month old lab-pitt mix in central TN.

In my early teens my mom called me "the female version of Dr. Jekyle and Mr. Hyde." Around the time I turned 21 I started slipping down a deep slope into a heavy depression. For the first time in my life I felt alone and wanted to kill myself. That was when I told my mom my feelings and she helped me get help. I was on several combinations of meds until I finally gave them all up. That was 4 years ago. I have not taken any meds since then because each combination seemed to be worse than the one before.

I have learned to tell when I have a mood coming on. I've tried getting to know my triggers and removing those triggers, but it isn't always easy. I have a tendency to snap without realising it. Like, for example, someone will say something and I will take it out of context and yell at them or say something mean. I instantly feel bad, and apologise. But, then they say something else and I snap again.

I have been wanting for years to find some support, I just wasn't sure how to reach out. I really hope that these forums can help