Nothing but chaos going on in my mind. Uncertainty about my life and if I will just become another bipolar statistic. I've been having major panic attacks and anxiety the last three days. My heart is pounding too fast, my thoughts are racing and it feels like I'm jumping out of my skin. I cannot for the life of me figure out what is causing all this anxiety. I can't function too well. I can't keep going like this.

T emailed me tonight and says he's worried. He says we need to consider the hospital if it's this bad because he wants to keep me safe. I'm not ready for that, but I am comforted that he cares and recognizes how bad the issues is atm.