Occasionally, I have fleeting thoughts of SI (stab my arms) and only when I am feeling rage. These urges trouble and scare me, tremendously. My anxiety increases so much that I sometimes think I will cross the line and submit to these urges. Never ever have I acted on them. I have enough problems and don’t want to resort to this coping method.

This anger I have has bothered me for years. It is very deep and has to do with life long alienation and misunderstanding. Processing and expressing my anger appropriately has been a challenge. In the past, I used to punch holes in walls and break things.

Will these SI urges ever go away, once I figure out how to address my anger? What can I do to alleviate this?

Urgh!