My emotions are all over the place...thinking way too much, I'm sure. I tend to isolate which doesn't help either. I try to reach out but have had a hard time since I was very small. I learned to be an introvert in order to survive since my mother was bipolar and had grand mall seizures...I had to learn to take care of her from a very young age. In my 40's I'm struggling to move beyond it but recently have broken up from a 3 1/2 year relationship. I need to talk about it and haven't really had anyone to tell that isn't a part of it all and has an opinion from within my life.

I was struggling, feeling like I was trying to hold myself together working and having a relationship with someone 40 miles away and to top it all off she was very distant so it made me very sad. To her I was very co-dependent and way too needy. I had certain things I thought made up a relationship. I longed for someone to look deep into my eyes and say I love you. The passion just wasn't there. Before that relationship I was in a 12 year relationship that was pretty deep and intense.

I don't know what to do with myself now...I started to see someone but it went way too fast so we slowed it down but I need to take some time for me and I don't know myself or where to begin. I find myself sitting at home watching tv and being alone a lot.

Anyone else know this feeling?