I was getting to feeling kind of weird at my group because there were many many people joining my group and I was making a good effort to share affirmations and also to ask everyone how they were doing. I have also shared with them that they can share anything they want and to support each other, too. It was not just my group.

I was afraid I was missing something because no one hardly ever talked in the group and I felt like I was putting out a lot and not getting anything back.

I realize that I can't give to get, but I like to see some results of what I am doing.

There seemed to be a very strong need for On Our Own (a group I made for those especially not able to go to therapy and needed support for emotional issues). I said I was not a therapist but that I did know a few things and that I would try to be supportive.

I should not have deleted everyone and I apologize. I was upset.

But I am also working on setting boundaries on who I want to work with who will give me at least some acknowledgement once in a while of what I am doing, or at least contribute to the group by sharing things, not just with me, but with each other.

A big group and a lot of need, but it felt like I was not wanted or my group was not really reciprocated.

How do I get some participation or reciprocity?

I can't connect with ppl in my life even if I might have a good idea for them or something they might need.

I try so hard to be positive and supportive here and I have gotten much support back but hardly ever at my group. Except for a few here and there and I sincerely thank them for it.

It really hurt my feelings, though, that the majority of ppl there did not really give anything to the group and to me it felt like a reflection of my doing maybe a poor job.

Anybody needs some recognition with any job, here and there, I believe.

If anyone wants an invitation and says they will participate a little more, I am more than happy to accomodate.

I want to try again.

Billi