It's great that your T is so concerned and that you can feel this. I agree w/ MKAC. I got to this point last year and during a session my T called the day hospital and together, on speaker phone, we asked about the procedure, intake, daily schedule, etc. It made the place seem less scary. We then had an agreement that if things got any worse that I'd go in. I felt OK about this because I was worried enough about myself and knew that deep down I did want to live. I actually started getting better so I didn't need to go into the hospital after all. But, I, too, was touched by how much my T was concerned about me and this helped me to realize that I might need more help than our 2 sessions/week could give me.

I know that this is hard - everything that's been going on - but you will get through it. You're fortunate to have such a caring and supportive T, a relationship that you built up.