Well I certainly understand being angry! And perhaps you do need to hold on to it a bit longer, as it might help you feel safer in that while you remember what they have done, they will not "get away with it again" at least for now.
I do question if staying around them for your son's needing the love of ppl... hmmm not sure I'm following you here, since it doesn't really sound like a good, nurturing love. from them. But I trust you to decide this.
Have you thought about a way to confront each of them face to face in a sit-down adult situation, and telling them exactly how you feel and that things need to change? Perhaps individually would be best, and in a neutral surrounding, so as they don't "gang" up on you. And you would need to rehearse your phrasing and edit it, so they don't use your anger against you. I am reminded of Christ being angry at the money changers in the temple... He used it for good, and it didn't make Him any less God.
Again, I refer to these types of personalities as "looters." They are best defined as ppl who do not return value for value. They take and take and make you feel guilty for not giving more. Few of them ever change. They sap your energy and walk away laughing. Put your guard up, but don't give them your energy even in your anger. They aren't worth it.
Remember that your son is taking notes on who acts and says what. He is forming his own opinions.
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