Thanks for your post and hugs. It's nice to feel that people understand what you're going through. I did try and stick it out for a little but the other he left a message saying some really horrible, obscene things and I did end it. I do feel guilty because I hate to leave someone while they're unwell but he feels he is well and wants to be this way. It's sad because if I was stronger I could deal with things but I'm just so exhausted. My anxiety plays out with heart pains, cramps, shaking etc and I'm noticing those things starting up and I have a child to look after. I love him so much but he's always going to have this side of him and do inappropriate things and say sorry later and there's only so much my heart can take.