Hi Nemos!

*Pounces and licks*

Sorry, had to get that in there. I wanted to reach out to you and let you know that you are not alone. My father was a drug dealer, went to prison when I was roughly 2 or so. My mother remarried (after dating a lot for three years) a pedophile. I think she chose the second marriage because he could provide for the family, I needed health insurance for the 8 surgeries I was yet to have. I can't tell you how many times my step-father walked out on my mom and told me it was my fault. I heard my mom once telling (more like yelling) at my older brother that when I was born my father wanted to give me up for adoption because I born with a pretty severe (but fixable) birth defect.

Luckily I'm twelve years outside of moving out and not having to be around them and their toxicity. I want you to know that life will not always include them. You are capable of making your own way, breaking free and letting go of their bull *****.

One of the things I found most difficult was the desire to have a mom and dad that I could talk to and trust and get love and affection from, while at the same time knowing they were not capable of that. Just because they couldn't give me what I needed didn't mean I stopped needing or wanting it. As an adult, I have had to learn that I need to either find other ways to get those needs met, or meet those needs for myself.

You are a wonderful person. You deserve so much better than what you have been through. If there is anything I can do to help at all, please know I am here and willing to help you through this difficult time in your life. I genuinely care about you and your well-being and want to do anything I can to help you make the life you deserve for yourself.

All my love and more,
ItS