Hi,

I was diagnosed as Bi-Polar 2 since a year ago.
I've had trouble accepting it and it seems like everythings been going downhill since then. I have job and financial troubles, and a whole shitload of other problems.

I don't really feel like I'm making progress anymore. I can't make decisions anymore because I feel paralyzed, I feel like every decision I make bites me.
Most of the time I just end up stuck, I don't even go out on the weekends anymore. I just stay home all alone. I know my two closest friends have grown tired of talking to and trying to help me.

I really don't know the point I'm making here. It's just hard as hell and only keeps getting worse, I feel like my life is telling me that this is what the rest of my life is going to be like. More often really bad and very little good.
The emotions I feel are always just way too ****ing intense, I can't handle it anymore. It is just a never-ending nightmare that even makes it hard for me to work.