i was beatem and have been pschologically abused in the last 4 months by my now ex-partner. he is in prison. i hate what he did to me but 50% of our relationship was normal which is what made me fall in love with him.

i keep seeing things round the house that he bought, like cake mixes - he used to bake me cakes a lot. these things make me feel sad that it resulted in the way it did.

i still feel love for him. but why??? and does/will it ever go?