i stayed single for 2 years til this year. i met a guy on NYE and he beat me and psychologically abused me. Well i spoke out and hes going to prison now, hopefully. he is being held on remand right now until court.

it was right time for me, wrong person. for him it was right person, wrong time. he has issues that we were trying to help him address. but hey, these things happen.

i have given up trying now. the thought of being single scares the crap out of me. but the thought of going through all that again is worse. so im gonna be on my guard and not make impulsive decisions like im prone to. if it happens it will take time and ive pre-conditioned myself to think like this.

i have to think about me. when i learn to love myself again after all this maybe the right time will come again. but you have to learn to love yourself before anyone can love you back.

heres hoping for all of us eh,,, but let things happen naturally. dont force the situation xxxxxxxx