Some people are like cats. Have you ever noticed that when you really want to pet a cat, the cat tends to ignore you and walk off. But when you ignore the cat it wants ever so much to be petted. It stands at your feet and meows and claws your leg to get your attention.
Perhaps she is a cat. If that is the case you need to go out and start doing things with your friends. Tell her what fun you had doing this or that or the other thing. Meanwhile don't ask her to do anything. I know this is hard to do when you are head over heals in love with someone but doing this will have 2 affects one is you will get out of the house and start enjoying yourself instead of waiting on someone who isn't treating you nice at all. And 2 you are sending a strong message that if she wishes to keep this relationship going then she is going to have to make some kind of effort.
I feel that you should prepare yourself for the possibility that you will not be with this girl forever. I know it FEELS like it could be the end of your existance but it won't be. I feel the same way when I have to separate from someone I cared for. It feels like a part of me is dying. It hurts so much. But I am now 35, I have gone through this pain many times and I am still here. I suffer from depression but I have pulled through. You will too. I spent 2 years in highschool pining over my ex-boyfriend. I hurt so bad. Then he graduated and went away. In my last year of highschool I met my husband. We have been together ever since. I thought my ex was going to be "the one" but I was wrong.
Zen
<font color=green>The snow falls on no two trees alike, and the forms it assumes are as various as those of the twigs and leaves which recieve it...so one divine spirit decends alike on all, but bears a peculiar fruit in each--Henry David Thoreau
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