thanks - I really wasn't sure where you were going with it, and I thought it might be misunderstood and give hope to people who want r/s IRL w/T. Or who get stuck thinking these feelings are wrong or secret or unique or to be hoarded. I think they need to be examined just like any other feelings. But they do take a little longer to understand, to come to light. They start, and you're like, wtf? but for me, they have been the beginning of seeing my T, AS A T, for the first time. Like I finally opened my little girl heart.