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Old May 13, 2012, 02:54 PM
Anonymous45023
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Basically, not so much, but it's kind of complicated.
Around people can be good, like running around the city. Makes me feel like "something's happening", lol. Though it can also be overwhelming sometimes and make me very skittish. Interacting with people is a different story. Generally makes me ill at ease. Not necessarily anxiety (though sometimes), as that I suck at small talk and have a hard time faking interest in things that bore the snot out of me, which is the contents of most conversation. I'm used to being an observer, and don't like being suddenly put into another role. It's disconcerting. On the other hand, when hypomanic, I'm rather obnoxiously sociable. Hardly give a flip who I'm talking to even. I'd talk to a chair! And get very expressive. And "boom!" things are out of my mouth before passing "the gatekeeper". Still, in thinking about it, these times probably don't count much towards "interaction". They can hardly get a word in.
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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse View Post
... and if I'm in a dysphoric state I actually hate people, both individually AND in groups. LOL
Hahaha, thanks for admitting it! I do too, and don't keep it to myself, an example of which is often clenching my fists, throwing my head to the sky and growling in exasperation, "O.M.G. I.HATE.people! Arggggghhhh!!!" And I don't give a flip who hears it.
Better they should know.
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Originally Posted by Anika View Post
... I'm pretty closed off from people physically and mentally...
Yup. Here too.