Hi I'm a 17 year old female who is struggling atm. Kinda a long story but I think it's important to tell..when i was very little my mum was diagnosed wih bipolar and I grew up mainly with my grandparents as my mum went in and out of hospital. When I was 13 my sister (who is 2 and 1/2 years older than me) attempted suicide three times . She too was diagnosed with bipolar and went into hospital. At the time I was incredibly upset and hurt. I dont like to talk to people and self harmed secretly as a way of coping. It got better but now over the last few months ive been feeling really down and have very little confidence. I feel upset a lot of the time and dont want to have these feelings. I started self harming again but only a little. Im very worried that i might have bipolar or depression too. I dont feel i can talk to my mum because i dont want to stress her out. Im a high performance athlete and its affecting my performance in games which is making everything worse. My life is stressful anyway but recently everthings just not right. I dont know what to do!?