I'm escaping reality by just hanging out at my friend's house watching movie after movie on TCM. (Good ones today about the subject of motherhood.)

Those of you in despair - maybe we could forgive each other. I, also, am bowed down by heavy guilt and remorse. when anyone here says anything nice to me, I think it's only because they don't really know me. I've had traumatic rejections. My new T tells me to just try to get a job. That hurt me. Then I thought: "Yes, I am a fraud with all this depression stuff, and he is on to me."