today has sent us spiraling badly from the very beginning. we agreed to attend a church service at the church we were so badly spiritually abused for 9 years with a good friend this morning because she didnt want to go alone so we thought we would be nice and go. BIG MISTAKE!!! turns out our ex-counselor of 7 years who abandoned/destroyed us back in november was the speaker this morning and needless to say it badly triggered an entire world of feelings. we felt completely frozen and lost the ability to talk. our friend felt bad because she didnt know she was speaking. but it set off sooooo much sadness anger despair inside. the little ones who called her "mom" have been inconsoleable since. we feel like we are drowning in a tidal wave of tears that have no way to be released. the pain in searing. the rejection/abandonment/worthlessness have come roaring back with a vengeance. we are still reeling. we tried to hide but she saw us and hugged us,whispered "i love all of you" in our ear while we stood paralyzed,unable to move or speak. please,can we have some hugs and encouragement if there is any to be shared? thank you♥♥♥