Arghhh. I just got a text (reply to my vm on Thurs night and my text from yesterday about not wanting to see her anymore) saying it sounds like something good to talk abt in person on Monday. I texted back "I'm not going," which was met with her saying, "I would be sad about that." So I sent back, "you get to go home an hour early" (I'm usually her last appt of the day). So then she called bc she doesn't do "therapy via texting." She said she understands my frustrations with my progress and think this transition period and the attachment are important to discuss and deal with. She told me to "respect the process" and the work i've done and even to respect her, by going to talk abt it on Monday. That kinda touched a nerve, bc I would never want to do something to disrespect her or slight her in anyway (which I'm pretty certain she knows with me being such a people-pleaser). But I don't want to go! I was so gung-ho abt not going on monday, but then she brought up this respect piece. And the her being "sad" abt me not going. Ugh, stupid attachment! And then she was saying she hasn't seen me fully commit to giving up the personal gains I get from the behaviors, which really sucks bc I've been trying so freakin' hard. $%^%#$%^*&^T%$$%#%@!!&