I wish I was strong enough to put aside my anger and forgive for the sake of my own happiness I'm 30 years old and I don't want to keep wasting my days lost in pain. I wish I could call my mom and wish her a happy mother's day but I am too angry and hurt from the years of resentment towards her. It saddens me that I don't have a mother I could run to and feel safe with. There's no room for any improvements in our relationship. I'm working on letting go and grieving for the dream mom I should have deserved to protect and love me.