I wanted to find out if I can be in a relationship, have consentual sex and not freak out, let someone be close. I was so close finding out these things but it's over. I don't understand, I don't know what went wrong. I have a new roommate, so when she told me she would be out the last weekend, I texted him. It was Thursday. I don't wanna him to think I'm a clingy girlfriend who keeps on texting a guy till he dies. I wonder when he would finally contact me. At least I can carry on my self-injury and no one asks questions. I don't know what I did wrong. I tried, really tried.