((((Mogie)))),

Yes, you are describing symptoms of PTSD and you are right, it does get very tiring. I can relate to just wanting to crawl in bed in hopes to sleep it off myself. Yes one can feel depressed, angry, and be full of anxiety all at the same time. And it can be stressful if you are trying to work while struggling with PTSD at the same time.

Mogie, are you seeing a therapist? If you are not, then you really need to find one that specializes in treating PTSD. You need to have someone that you can go to every week and discuss all your feelings like you are describing above with. It is good that you are here and allowing yourself to vent out what your feeling. I know it can be very lonely and tiring, I hear you as I have been struggling myself, so you are not really alone even if it feels that way because I know myself that other people around us simply DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT and tend to SAY ALL THE WRONG THINGS that only aggrivate it.

I am thinking about going to a thread I started just to vent myself because I really had a very difficult week last week and yesterday took the cake. I don't think anyone is going to solve my problems, but at least others understand the difficulty of the journey with PTSD.

Please vent if you need to, it is good for you to know you are not alone. What are you doing for yourself to help YOU?

It is important to be kind to yourself and remember that you DO have PTSD and NO, there are things you are going to experience and feel that are really not your fault and you are going to have to take time to give yourself a chance to work on it slowly.

((((Hugs))))
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