Yes, there is such a thing as getting better. I did it and so have others. You have a T, you need to push forward and work with your T to get better.

On another thread I just read what you wrote. You wrote that you aren't a trusting person. Those of us who have been betrayed while growing up, of course this is what we learned. But we are flexible beings and you can learn to trust just like you learned to distrust. It is a process.

And you know what else. The name that you chose for yourself really says a lot about how you feel about yourself. Those who raised you might have made you feel this way about yourself but they were wrong. They were probably treated this way themselves so they continue the tradition. It is wrong. No child should be treated like they are an idiot because no child is an idiot. You can still change your name here. It can go a long way in how you see yourself if you stop what you learned about beating yourself up.