I feel that way too, especially with everyday tasks like cleaning and work. Doesn't everybody?? But is there anything you do that makes you feel really alive? Anything you're passionate about? For me it would be writing. I've always loved to write since I was little and I think I'm pretty good at it. Also, teaching my kids new things. I like knowing that the majority of their intelligence is directly influenced by how much time I've spent with them and what they've learned from me. It makes me proud of them and myself. Music is another thing that makes me feel alive, at least temporarily, even when I feel mostly dead. It really is the little things in life that matter the most. Dive head-first in something fun but productive and savor it. Live in the moment sometimes. I hope you find something that makes you feel alive.