Thank you for your post. I'm trying to be strong and not to feel bad. He does seem like he is genuinely sorry. Now he has realised how much he has hurt me he seems to have withdrawn because he doesn't want to talk when he's upset so he doesn't say anything horrible. I've just been feeling really depressed today, I don't really feel like I can talk to people because they feel like I know he has these issues and I chose to stick around so I have to deal with the fallout. I just feel so trapped in my own head going over events that did or did not happen. Trying to make sense of gaps and partial information and possible friendships or infidelities. I'm just so low right now. I'm just do confused, especially days like today when I'm not at work and have the whole day to think. The problem is there's been so many lies, you never know what's the truth and it seems there may have even been something going on with the neighbour, he says they just you to talk but he kept denying he ever spoke to her at the time which made me believe there's something to hide. I just can't find any balance right now. I'm so confused about everything. I just feel like giving up!