yea i dont know, its not so bad at this point in time, we are working through it, we talk about it quite a bit, and even though i do get upset its good to know we sort of share a common fear. I love him to death, and i know that i know that, and sometimes thats enough to satisfy me. As for rejection or abandonment...well..id say that ive been used and then abandoned a few times, it hurts to fall into a "trap" like that. For some reason i think that this relationship is so good that im scared because i feel it cant last forever and that nothing is this good forever, im afraid to let myself believe that. Thats what it comes down too.

"in a haze a stormy haze i'll be round i'll be loving you always, always...here i am and i take my time here i am ill wait in line always, always..." ~coldplay~