today is OMG-bad. I am in such a void. I made it through the weekend though, thanks to my kids. I am in the "one hour at a time" mode. It helps to be here on pc, to see others struggles and try to help them. It takes my mind off things for a bit. The darkness is SO close though, and it doesn't help that my withdrawal symptoms are painful. I have T tomorrow, I am determined to try and lean on him more...the alternative is scarey.

thank you all for helping through this.