I tend to rapid cycle so bad I can't tell you what I am in one day, much less multiple days. However, when I am dealing with a clearly defined mood it tends to be depression. The depression tends to be preceded by clearly defined mania. When I get manic I can't sleep, can't shut up and can't concentrate on one thing very long. I also get extremely irritable. When I'm depressed I just don't want to do anything. If it doesn't involve my kids and husband I just don't care. You could tell me the entire town was on fire and I wouldn't care. I do get more thoughts of hurting myself than I do when I'm not depressed. I prefer to deal with neither and would give almost anything to be rid of the rapid cycling--to me that is the worst feeling in the world because I despise feeling like I'm not in control of my feelings--but if given a choice I'll go with being manic on some level. I hate being depressed and it scares me. I always worry that I'm going to get so far down in the black pit, as I call it, that I'll end up suicidal and back at the psych hospital.