Ugh, anxiety. Don't you just want to kick anxiety in the face? I know I do. I hate it so much. I have been where you are. The shaking was awful. I didn't feel real. I didn't understand how EVERYONE wasn't walking around terrified at how scary the world is. EVERYTHING seemed unsafe. EVERYTHING.
That was me a year ago. I can't even begin to explain how much better I feel today. Learning about anxiety has helped me SO much. It is completely possible to come back from where you are. It will take a lot of work, but it can definitely be done. I had to face all of the fears and teach myself that I am stronger than my anxiety. We all are, even if we don't know it yet.