T2 doesn't use scripted phrases, but often the things she says reveal the fact that she is in that room a few feet away from me but still consciously at a distance.
"Last week you were able to verbalize that you..." , referring to the anguished moment when I managed to squeak out something I never thought would see the light of day.
"you have a great fear of rejection," when I was immobilized with it needing to tell her something negative, and too scared to say it...
She's not cold, not blank slate, she is very approachable; but she's still, and always, the woman behind the curtain, even when I am "engaged" and forget ... she too is engaged, but isn't, at same time.
...Shape shifter....
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