I have decided to break up with Ramon. One detail I left out, his I.Q. is 60. I finished first in my class at the best college in my area. I wrote a little about my past experience with bad boys. This is what drove me to try the opposite. To tell you the truth, I only had 2 two month relationships with bad boys and two shorter relationships with people out of their mind. I had found myself a thirty year old who had never experienced anything that at all resembled a relationship. The loneliness was eating away at my brain. So I found someone who let me call the shots, who worshipped my decisions and viewpoints. The opposite of a bad boy or screwed up person. I wanted to feel what a relationship felt like, one that wasn't breaking the law. Well, now I know. And the end doesn't even hurt that much, though I fear once I tell Ramon the pain will be enormous. I cannot think of a time when he uttered one intelligent word....there's other fish in th sea! I feel like I've grown and the mystery of what a relationship feels like is unraveled...