I just got back from trauma T (T2).

We did some visualization of little girl me spending time with adult me (or vice versa).

I had asked him before if he wanted me to go along with the visualizations when what he said didn't seem to fit, or if he wanted me to resist a bit. He had said he wanted me to go along with it -- but not after today.

He described little-me as a "precious little girl" several times. He tried to assist the adult-me to look at the little-me with kindness and positive regard. Little-me wasn't having it. She vacillated between detached compliance and confusion. She never smiled. Her face showed that she was either "not there" or terribly confused by the interaction with adult-me. I told T, "I'm sorry, but nothing you are saying makes any sense." The only part of the visualization that I agreed with was how stinking cute the other little 5 year-olds around me were.

God -- I had NO IDEA that I would be hitting these walls. I'm both fascinated and sad/frustrated. I actually reflected that if T2 wanted to access my emotions he would, at the very least, need to be grumpy and demanding toward me. I don't know if Ts do that though, do they? It would work. I would easily be in touch with a myriad of emotions and thoughts and wouldn't hesitate to let them out. I don't know -- I'll mention it to him next time.

At the end he complimented me and said that it's actually helpful for him to know what worked and what didn't work. So I'm not "going with it" anymore -- he wants me to resist so that he can learn how to take a different approach.

Have you guys had experiences similar to this?