Hi

I haven't been on the forum very long but have made a few threads. Basically I have GAD and generally manage ok until I am under extreme stress. My partner or ex as of Friday has schizophrenia and is having an episode. I've been with him nearly three years and do love him so much but sometimes he can be really mean and say some horrible things. He generally a loving guy and considerate and understanding but he just makes it very difficult to trust him. When he changes, he does whatever he wants, chats up other woman, swears at me, shouts at me and seems to not even care how I'm feeling. Then he believes I'm being unfaithful and that I'm on the side of the hospital and that I want bad things to happen to him. I mean I've done everything to try and show him how much I care and now he even holds it against me that I'm a support worker. Sometimes I just can't win. Friday he hurt my feelings so much that I ended it. At the same time though I do really love him and want to be there for him but he makes me feel like nothing I do is good enough. He doesn't think he's unwell he thinks the hospital want him to stay there so they can take is energy. Please tell me, has anybody managed to trust and have a faithful, successful relationship. How does it feel to go through these things? What could I do that would help if anything. I'm just so exhausted!