I started with my current T in january, after having seen someone else prior. I really barreled through those first couple of months - it seemed like every session was some huge disclosure of tough stuff.

At one point, T told me that he was concerned about how fast I was going. He thought I was outpacing my ability to process the crap I was disclosing. He quite deliberately slowed me down. Since then, a lot of current life stuff has been the primary focus, but the last couple of session have been more focused on things from the past.

I finally realized why I was doing that. My previous T had terminated with me fairly quickly because he moving to another state. The more I thought about it, the more I understood that I had been racing through trying to get my CSA all out in the open and "dealt with" before he made a similar announcement. Also, I wanted to get it "out of the way" before my mom passed away, so that grief wouldn't keep me from dealing with it.

Since I made those connections and now have more faith that he's not going to ditch me, I've been able to relax and let things come at their own pace. It sometimes surprises me, since I no longer walk into sessions with a checklist of "things I must cover today to stay on schedule". Things tend to wander around a bit and, as a result, more things are revealed than I ever expected.