At times I am, mostly when it comes to relationships. I know I'm a good person, I'm smart, I'm attractive--but I always think people who know about my bipolar don't view me that way. I'm always worried they view me as a freak. With my husband I worry a lot that he's only staying here for the kids and that I'm a burden. I worry about him looking for something better and considering me to be a burden. Granted, part of that is the result of him becoming emotionally involved with a couple of women and refusing to tell an ex that he was engaged when we became engaged 14 years ago. Like it or not, that stuff has a lasting effect. I do think my insecurities are primarily due to the bipolar, though. I'm always worried about what people think.