I don't usually like being around people unless I know them really well and feel comfortable with them. There aren't many of those. I don't mind big groups or crowds because the focus is not geared towards me and I can just sit back and watch. One-on-one though with someone I don't know well at all is rough. Too much focus on me, anxiety, insecurity. Poor self-esteem, I guess. When I'm hypo, much of the anxiety is gone and I feel much more at ease talking with anyone. Depressed, I don't want to show my face to anyone.
Today I have a job interview and this is the worst case scenario for me. My anxiety is haywire right now. Stomach in knots. Shaking with anxiety. Too much focus on me, needing to impress, pressure to "fake it 'til I make it", so-to-speak. God, help me!