I am so glad you did post! I agree with OE, expressing your feelings and thoughts is really good. By posting, you are helping others here, as well

In the beginning of this journey (since my diagnosis), the slightest bit of kindness from anyone that meant anything to me would literally make me cry! I felt so grateful by their gesture. Just a "hello" or a simple "thanks" out of the blue was all it took!

I also felt as if I were a giant burden (on the whole world) for the longest time...it wasn't until I started working on finding my own personal self worth and self esteem (and reminding myself that I, too, have a teeny little place in the world) that I thought less of being a "burden" and more of just a human being that happens to be here

I hope that makes sense.

Please continue posting ... you aren't alone! I can completely relate to what you wrote.