Splintered, I relate so much to what you are going through! I had a huge reaction to a scary trigger recently and it has thrown me into a tailspin. T and I put a lot on hold just to sort of stabilize me because, as you say, I may be safe in this moment but I am terrified abut the next moment.

The more scared I get, the more I narrow my life-- and the more scared I get. So I am trying to take little steps into the fear to try to break its hold on my life, things like "I am going to go grocery shopping even though it feels like something awful will happen, because I don't want my life to be ruled by fear" or "I am going to go to bed even though it is terrifying because I don't want my fear to control everything." I'm making an enemy of the fear because I don't kow what else to do.

I'm sorry we are going through this, because it is horrible.